Do not despair in your current situation. It can and it will change. How and why are in your control. The situation will change as you increase your faith. The reason it will change is because of God. With Him in your life daily everything is possible.
Jesus looked at them intently and said, “Humanly speaking, it is impossible. But not with God. Everything is possible with God.”
Mark 10: 27
New Living Translation
Talk to God, listen to God, and follow God. Life becomes easier and full of joy. You do not have to keep doing the same old things. God has a better plan for you.